It has been a long while since I've been on this pre-myspace-mania site, xanga. I remember how pure and fun this site was.... you could post your thoughts on here and have only a select few people from school read your inner most personal thoughts. Compared to MYSPACE Where you life is posted for the entire world to judge and post pointless bulletins about. where the boyfriend cheats on the girlfriend who cheats on her girlfriend who cheats on her boyfriend's boyfriend (secretly) That is the life we live in now. this is the life our little brothers and sisters will have to suffer through. everyone knows everyone, everyone is connected in some way...wow isn't that cool. Yeha. it totally is until your next door neighbors cousin's uncles' great grandpa is looking at your nudy pics you've posted of yourself just hoping HOPING that you will get some "hot dudes" attention....when your really not. sorry. Anyway. Update on my life. AND NO i don't expect anyone to read this nor do i care. I have become to lazy to pick up a pen and paper and write these thoughts down, so they will be secure and never read. I guess i secretly want someone. anyone? to read these thoughts that don't even have anything to do with them. anyways OH where did i leave off... thailand? yes thailand. Well my vacation went boring as hell. Trust me. Its the worst vacation I could ever have even wished for. I sat around all day and did absolutely NOTHING but watch thai soap operas and chow down on some noodles...while back in the states my friends were having the time of their lives, living it up like your supposed to do the last of your teen years, but no, not me. 3 months of boring, shoot your self in the face family time. i mean don't get me wrong i like family. but 3months!?!?!? no thank you. So i get back. Drama with the Bryan. drama with the erica's and christina's. no word from the hallie's or cali's. yeah i must say life is going pretty sweet. to make a long story short, my senior sucked hairy balls, i'm trying to hold on to the only thing i have, bryan, and all my friends now seem like acquaintances.  Bryan = my life. sad sad i know. BUT wouldnt you agree that no matter how hard a girl tries this always happens unless their boyfriend is in the same clique they are? hm hm hm? Crisco= to busy for me, always hanging out with Kenny (her boyfriend, surprised much?) Hallie= i love hallie, but always with the beau. Cali= moved to AZ....always with nick? i guess that doesnt count, shes always in AZ because she lives there, Erica= moved to CO, i hate her new friends (yes yes i said it, HATE) and when she moves back shes going to get back together with her son of a bitch ex. well damn. How did all these people that i grew up with, that were sisters to me, how i can i talk about them this way now? its because i dont have any real friendships anymore they're all gone. girls always switch friends, they're bff one second, hate each other the next, move on to the next bff bitch, backstabbing, blood everywhere, mascara dripping, hair pulling chick. that is the life of a girl. and the only on she can feel she can depend on (for the most part) is her boyfriend. Her (in her eyes) handsome prince charming stud who comes and sweeps her off her feet, but wont hesitate to call her a dirty tramp slut that he doesnt love the second he comes and saves her from despair. and you know what its okay. we just take it, (for the most part) to sum it all down into one sweet little sentence: I miss my girlfriends. there it is. yes yes Varissa people change i know i know. whatever i dont know where i'm getting at...or what my point is. I'm going to go clean my room and basically wait for my life to get off of work. ex.oh.ex.oh Ris  | 
